Lightning crashes
Confusion sets in….
wow…so this is what it is like to deal with an unreasonable drunk…this is a bit foreign to me….my friend will not answer any of my texts or calls and is also ignoring another of our friends….I am shocked by her behaviour…this is not what she is like normally…she is the sweetest most giving person…now she is stubborn and nasty…the only texts back that I received from her were last night during her drunken stupor….she told me to leave her alone, don’t text or contact her ever,that our friendship was done
I am sad….frustrated…confused
I know that this is her shit but I love her so much and this is so opposite of her usual self….I thought she would wake up this morning and either not remember anything or else be so sorry for her actions….
Alcohol is one crazy drug…don’t get me wrong, you all know that I like to imbibe but to let it overtake your life?…I can’t compute ….I am so shocked that someone’s personality can do a complete 180 because of alcohol…I can intellectualize the situation…see her stress factors (breakup, job loss, unwanted pregnancy etc) and understand why she is reacting this way but…then I feel so sad and confused and hurt….and helpless…..I feel that anything I say to her about her drinking she will see as a personal attack
I have left messages and texts saying how much I love and care for her and how I will always be here for her…she has replied by saying I tossed her out like a douche…this doesn’t even make sense…we haven’t even had our mini intervention with her yet!… so I have not said anything to her other than she shouldn’t feel guilty all the time as she is one of the most compassionate giving people I have ever met…..
I am stunned
sad sad smooches,
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This is very, very difficult. She may be going through so much that you can’t reach her. You do your job in telling her how much you love her and that you are there for her and then…well, it’s not your job anymore.
I am so sorry.
I can’t say that I understand it either. I can understand drug addiction far easier, in fact. Crazy? Maybe. But with drugs you float off into a nether world, and all I can see of alcohol is a not very nice high with a lot of downside. I realize this doesn’t sound very responsible, and I don’t do either type of drug (unless you count occasional bouts of benadryl consumption to get to sleep). But it never made sense to me.
Oh sweetie…this is absolutely terrible. Hugs to you (and your friend).
Yes, this is hard stuff to deal with. Especially when someone’s temperment changes so quickly. It sounds like you are a good, caring friend though, and that is what she needs right now. Even though it may test your patience at times.
Hang in there.
Ps – I haven’t listened to LIve in ages. You might have just inspired me to do so.